i wish i could get a hotel room to myself for the night just to be alone.
depression/anxiety sucks. i am a stay at home mom who is now homeschooling and i feel like my husband looks at me like i don't do anything all day. sometimes i wonder if it would just be better if i went to work and we put the kids in daycare.
my kids give me more anxiety than anything. it makes it so hard for me to want to be present and engaged with them. the touching, the loud noises, the moods.. i can't hang and i feel so guilty 24/7. motherhood is so hard for me and it breaks my heart.